DavezMental’s Blog

Wow, 2 blogs in 7 days….what in the world is going on….call it spring break week, which naturally means that I am going to procrastinate doing my million and one projects that are due the week of the 26th, hence more time to sell t-shirts and blog….hahaha….

Anyways, I just wanted to piggy back off last weeks blog. The whole time thing and “the what once mattered back in the day to what matters now” theme…..I am doing this, because, well it is March….Probably the craziest month of the year…when else is it 60 degrees one day then 14 degrees three and a half days later?? Remember as a kid, you learned that March is like a lion and April is like a lamb….Damn, it’s windy in March!! I love March though, because it is when spring comes….and spring, although its a b-i-t-c-h in March and early April, means warmer weather, and that summer is right around the corner….

It’s funny because, 10 years ago, when the greatest rapper of all time died on March 9th, March meant March Madness pools and Spring Training Baseball…now, I could care less about that, I mean I still love sports, particularly baseball, but I am no longer the fanatic that knows the stats of every single player in the league….I’m lucky if I even know all the players on my team let alone their stats these days….Now March, it means partying on St. Patty’s Day (which happens to be my mom’s bday) and Spring Break…..when I mean Spring Break, I don’t mean party time, like it did 6 years ago when I was in college for the first time, I mean Spring Break as in B-R-E-A-K……as, I approach thirty….I refuse to write 3-0, I do probably “party” more than I did when I was 20, but now it is more meaningful because I experienced the carefree lifestyle. Like, when I was in college, for the most part, the only care in the world was grades….there were no money worries (I made a lot of money at my collge job), there were no bills, no stress, no worries of any kind….College was one big party in a sense. I might be contracting myself, but at age 27, going out and chillin with the fellas and “partying” is just more fun, more meaningful…..Partying at this age is a stress-reliever vs. just a thing to do because everyone else is doing it. By the way, when I say party, I don’t mean getting trashed, because I still don’t drink or do drugs, I just mean going out and meeting people, which is a lot of fun sober….hahaha….

And the good Lord knows that I needed a weekend to party and have fun. Because after talking about how good things were last blog, I had the week from hell….well, it wasn’t that bad, just more challenging than I’m used to. It’s funny, because my whole life, I seem to jinx myself. The minute I realize things are as near-perfect as they are going to get, BAMMM….I get kicked in the ass….I guess that’s God’s way of humbling me…..and when I say the minute I realize things are good, I mean the precise moment to the nearest second that I realize things are good, I get whalloped, whether it be an internal thought, me talking to someone, or my new favorite thing to do, blog. about how good it is….By the way, I’m not someone that usually brags or complains, it’s just that writing is therapuetic for me…

All I do now, is laugh the bad things off….I wish I wrote down some of these things that happened, because they are silly……It was dumb little things like being late to work everyday because I couldn’t get up. The same week that the principle talked about on the prior week’s staff meeting in which NOT to be late….the kids were testing and he wanted us there early because it’s a stressful time for everyone……mind you, I am early everyday and take pride in never being late….this week I was late everyday….at least I didn’t get caught….That not being able to wake up didn’t allow me to run in the morning, like I started doing, so now I feel fat and out of shape….it also, didn’t allow me to make myself lunch in the morning…..you see the cycle I got myself into? Other stupid things: the one day I forgot my hat, it was freezing and started to precipitate on me…..I broke my cell phone and was without it the two days that my internet wasn’t working (that could tramatize someone in 2007)….I got dissed a few times by people for various reasons….I knew the answers to the hard questions that my professor asked the class, but didn’t participate…..if I did raise my hand, I would have knocked his socks off…..this is the same class that I didn’t get a perfect score on my research paper because, I was short one of the required 6 references required to get a perfect score. Mind you, I had 2 books from the library that I got for this paper but never used, therefore didn’t cite…I would have had the only perfect paper in the class, if I didn’t make that dumb mistake and paid attention to the rubric……hope that made sense, if not read it again……I almost got ran off the road by a tractor trailer; got pulled over for speeding; was grouchy to my mom all week-which I hate being but sometimes can’t help; the Sixers are winning like crazy, which means they won’t get the first pick in the draft; and the Eagles aren’t doing squat in free agency, how are they going to let Stallworth go!!! Good thing I don’t live and die for sports anymore, huh? Anyways, Etc, Etc, Etc….believe me, I left some things out….anyways, what goes up must go down….luckily, I learned to laugh at life instead of crying over it!! Anyways, here is to a good week for all!!!

Ever hear a song that just takes you right back to the time of the actual song…..When I mean take you back, I mean the same internal feelings you had back then comes right back….the same feelings you had in your gut. Whether, you were going through bad times or good times, and despite if your mood or feelings changed from that time period, that song brings you right back!!!

Last night, I heard a song from this time last year and those same feelings re-entered me…..I had to laugh at that. The things I stressed back then are non-existent right now. I remember being stressed over money, my car, and a girl I had feelings for. Now, my money is ok, I have a new car, and that girl is no longer in my life. It’s funny how things that at one time or another that were so damn important to you, just evaporate from your everyday thought. How one day in the future, you laugh at yourself for being so foolish for being such a worry wart over things so pity in your past. Yeah, it’s easier said than done. I mean, it’s very easy to reminisce and laugh at yourself, but life in the present time frame is hard!!!

Last year, this time, I was so filled with emotion, it was crazy!! I just moved back home with my mom for the first time 8 years. Believe me, if anybody changed drastically in an 8 year period, it was me. That took some adjustments. Plus there was the hurt pride of being 26 and after fending for myself for so long, having to resort back to mommy because of a financial blunder….When I was in high school, I refused to get into the dating scene….A middle school relationship scarred me, so, I stayed out of it in high school. Now, that’s all I do is Date….So, I went from never bringing a girl home to bringing a different one home weekly….That is an akward time for a 26 year old who just moved back home with a prude mom, one that you couldn’t talk to when it came to girls the last time you lived in her household….Then there was the whole AE thing (from 2 blogs ago). Even though, I was bedding these other ladies (just for the record, I wasn’t a dog, they all new where I stood in regards to relationship….like Big Pun, I wasn’t a player, I just……) I was destressed because I wanted AE in my life….I used sex with other women as a scapegoat, thinking that being with them would take away the pain of not being with the one I wanted….I was wrong….it made things worse….and no matter how much I tried to make myself feel better, the more and more girls I was with, the worse I felt…..

Well, I laugh at that now…..a year later, I’ve grown up…I laugh at the thought of me being so depressed over someone that didn’t want to be with me. I laugh at the fact of feeling awkward sneaking a chick home at age 26….lol…now I make enough money to get a telly…hahaha….but at the same time, I’m not the man whore I was in 2006. I am content with myself. Yes, I still, from time to time enjoy the company of a female companioin, I just don’t have that urge to bed every hottie that passes me in order to take away some other pain…..I was a fool for wasting a whole year of emotion on one girl that wasn’t even close to being the “One.” So, last night when I heard that She Wants Revenge song, “I don’t wanna fall In Love,” the one that was my anthem this time last year, I just laughed…..

I am busier now than I have been in about 2 years, and I am as cool as a cucumber….I mean, I usually am very cool calm and collected, and carefree, but right now I am on top of my game…..money is good, my 6 classes aren’t overwhelming me, my 2 businesses are making slow but steady progress weekly, and most importantly my students are learning science. According to their parents, I am their favorite teacher…hahaha….that’s what I live for. I had my first ever parents night, and it rocked!! I love being a teacher….

Although, life is good, I know not to get complacent, because like the economy, life goes in cycles…there are surpluses and there are recessions…..things are just so perfect right now, I know something around the corner crazy is coming…..it’s almost like the calm before the storm….coming up, my mom is moving, which means, I have to find some way to buy her place….or find an apartment and be back on my own….something I am more than ready for, but financially, not quite there yet…..there is the hellish month of march and april for school work….it’s going to get crazy…there is the fact that I will be jobless after June 28th…..like my mom said last Wednesday, when it started to snow, “Here comes the big one, Weezy.” After I corrected my mom that it was Fred Sanford that said, “here comes the big one,” not George Jefferson, I told her nothing was coming….I was right, that big storm, was nothing…..I called the bluff and won……I do believe something is coming though…….and its going to be a big one…..stay tuned and I’ll let u know…..